Some quotes that I like :)

-Everyday people ask me, "Are you two going out?" and you don't even realize how painful it is to reply, "No, we are just friends."


-I want a man that when I come up running to him with tears running down my face, the first thing he says is: "Baby, whose ass do I have to kick!!"


-Well behaved women barely make History.


-I forgot a lot of things because he takes up most of the space in my memory ;)


-I think what I need more than anything else in the world is to be told (just once) that a friend doesn't know what they would do without me.


-Welcome to a world; where people talk about eachother and everybody lies and everybody tries to be something they are not and nobody can keep a secret ad friendships that lasted forever were broken...yeah well...it's called LIFE...


-You don't have to be crazy to be my friend, but it sure helps!


-Should I smile because we are friends or cry because that's all we'll ever be.


-And you always said that life is horrible and you had nothing to live for, and that whole time I sat back and waited; hoping that one day, you said it was me..but you never did.


-S0metimes it's right to do what's wrong.


-The future belongs to who believe in the beauty of their dreams.


-How can you be happy when I am dying inside because of you.


-You told me you love me....why did you leave me all alone?

P.S...I hate reading books but I can read a whole book of quotes in a night...it's fun..believe me :D !!!

I Am Not a Perfect Girl!

I have read it somewhere and I liked it :]

I am not a perfect girl.

My hair doesn't always stay in place &

I spill things a lot. I am pretty clumsy &

sometimes I have a broken heart.

My friend & I always fight &

maybe some days nothing goes right.

but when I think about it & take a step back

I remember how amazing life truly is

& that maybe. just maybe. I like being

imperfect.

Quote!

Many men can make a fortune, but very few can built a family!!

I highly agree with this quote...ain't it true?

She is leaving her memories behind :(

Nastya (Anastasiya) from Russia is leaving tomorrow morning at 6 o'clock...why is it so that we have to leave the people we love a lot? She has been the sweetest friend here. I don't know but as she is leaving, I am feeling for her a lot more than before. It won't be that much hard to say 'Goodbye' if I know that I am gonna meet her again but there is no possibility of meeting anytime soon :(
It's a point in my life where I am feeling helpless...I can't do anything to stop her...!!!
Tomorrow, I am going to the airport with her at 3:30 am because I want to spend some more time with her...I don't know what am I gonna do....will I be able to see her going away and not seeing her ever in my life :(?
I am helpless....I love you, my Russian...I love you a whole lot :'(

Nastya was wearing Pakistani Traditional Clothes on the last day of her stay (today) :(
She really wanted to have this dress from the beginning of the year so I gave this to her as a present :)
She was looking way cute in them :)














My sweetest Russian...No one can take your place :)

I don't know why do I feel guitly on such little things...Probably because I don't consider them little things.
In my nine months of stay in US, I never felt as much guilty as I felt yesterday. Me and my friends planned to go to downtown at the 'gateway'...a famous place with a lot of fun stuff to do. My friend's mom dropped us to the station to take 'Trax'...Generally trax take almost half an hour to reach downtown "Salt Lake City"...we reached downtown...did shopping...walked around..saw the water show..It was simply awesome. It was fun when people were trying to escape from water but all was in vain and the water splashed all over them :P
The trip to downtown was no less than heck fun but when we were coming back, we took the trax again. I was getting off from the trax at the station where my friend's mom dropped us. I was at the end of the line. Everyone was getting off from the trax without noticing that there is an old lady with quarterstaff, standing and waiting for people to let her get on the trax...all the people went off the trax but me...I was getting off and I got off the trax without looking for that old lady. I didn't even say sorry and got of the trax as I didn't even see her.
As I was walking with my friends, suddenly the whole scene came in my mind...the old lady holding a quarterstaff....waiting for everybody....ahhh *guiltiness*
I cursed myself..."WHY DID YOU DO THAT?".....I cried and cried and cried....That scene stucked in my head and I can't stop myself from thinking about the old lady....I am so sorry...hope she'll forgive me :(

Love!

I always wonder,

You always remember,

The talks we had,
The stories we shared,

The giggles we had,

The worries we spared,

You made me laugh,

You took my worries away,

I fell for you,

You fell for me,

Together; we made the bridge,

Of love,

But,
You denied what you said,

You don't feel for me anymore,

Love,

I am still the same,

Who loves to talk to you,

Who loves to listen to your voice,

Who waits for your call,

Who gives you thousands of missed calls,
Who misses you the most,

Who loves to be teased by you,

I am still the same!

Love me or leave me!

Best moment in Vegas :)

Okay guys, so here is my video....This video was taken by one of my Tunisian exchange friend when they kept my wallet while I was thinking that I lost it...Rosa finally told me that they have it and I better watch out next time.....I am so careless in money matters!!! I hope you like it and I would love to have comments from you especially on this one ;)

DISABLED BY THE AUTHOR!!!

Las Vegas, Nevada (My First Trip outside Utah)

I had heard a lot about Las Vegas before especially about gambling, prostitution, drinking and night life....I really wanted to see it. So I got a chance to go to see Vegas with all the exchange students. Travelling for 6 hours made me tired but still I was excited to see each and every scene of Vegas!!! We finally reached Nevada.

The hotel was okay...looked great from outside but was just fine from inside...anyway we waited for reservations in the room for like an hour....that was tiring because I couldn't wait to see Vegas.
As soon as we got our rooms, we unpacked our luggage and got ready to experienced Vegas ;)...!!!!

Here are some of the pictures:

A cool looking place!
Ballagio :)
Fashion show Mall!

We weren't allowed to take pictures in Casino but we did..LOL!!!

and yeah, we had to pass from Casino to go out from many places...casinos were all in the way!!

MnMs factory :)

Beautiful :)

We are in Paris...wohooo...lol!!

Ghada and Rosa played a trick on me....I droped my wallet somewhere on the street but fortunately Ghada see it and they kept it...I was going to cry but I managed and the best part is that they took the video of it.....I'll post the video in the next post :) Keep waiting :P

Hope you'll like the pictures :)

That person spoiled his/her reputation

Ahh...how cheap!!!!
I have no words to describe how a single act of someone ruined their whole reputation...I never thought that YOU can do such a cheap thing...I trusted you so much...Oh my world, how can you do that to me? I valued you a lot...but you...ahhh...I can't say anything...I don't even want to face you ever in my life but unfortunately I would have to....sucks!

Little girl, big tears!

I don't know why but this line of my mom touched me so bad...my host cousin was crying and my mom said, "Awww....little girl, big tears" and that broke me into tears suddenly....I don't know what was that...sometimes I can't even understand myself !

Life means...

Life means..
A winter evening,
4 friends,
Mild rain,
4 cups of tea..

Life means..
100 bucks of petrol,
2 rusty old bikes,
And an open road..

Life means..
Maggi noodles,
A hostel room,
3:25am..

Life means..
One preparation leave,
One night,
One book, 8 duffers..

Life means..
3 old friends,
3 separate cities,
3 coffee mugs,
And 1 internet messenger....

Life means..
Just FRIENDS..

For all my friends who mean so much to me all my life...love you all :)

I am yours...You are mine!

Whenever I imagine,
Me with you,
You with me,
Life seems so worthwhile,
Your thoughts accompany me,
Even I am sleeping,
Takes me to fantasy,
You being mine,
Me being yours,
And the affection we share,
Will always remain there,
I will always stand by you,
And hope to see you there!

Best thing in Life!

What can be the best thing in someone's life? Is that you love somebody and he loves you back? But what if that person doesn't love you? Or what if he never expresses what he feels? Or just imagine, what if he loves somebody else and you are not even aware of it? Or what if he can never take you as his love lady? Doesn't that hurt to lose the person you love a lot? Is that what we call life? Can life be completed without the love of someone special? If you don't have love, is your life a waste then? Why there is great attraction for a single person that we can't feel for others? What makes him special to us? Is that just the way he talks? Why life is full of questions and I have no answer to any of them!

!!!

Meray kam-sukhan ka ye hukam tha k kalaam us say mein kam karun,
Meray honth aesay silay k phir, meri chup ne us ko rula dia !

I am in love with poetry :)

Poetry !

Mohabbat jabr hai, taqdeer hai, tehreer-e-azli hai,
Mohabbat mein bhala kab koi khud mukhtaar hota hai,
Ye na samjho jo rota hai wohi bimaar hota hai,
Ye hansna bhi musalsal dard ka izhaar hota hai,
Mujhay mohsin yun lagta hai judai maar dale gi,
Judai mein her ik lamha bohat dushwaar hota hai...

I can't feel the amazing feeling anywhere that I always get after reading this poetry...especially the middle stanza !

Love it !

"I never knew how to worship until I knew how to love ;)"

I am deeply, emotionally, hysterically, unconditionally in love with this quote. It’s just way too good !

.....

As I am pondering upon each passing day, I am coming to know more and more about myself....I was never like this before...time brought a total different attitude in me but in a positive way...I don't care about the things that i used to care about...I know I can do whatever I want to...no one can ever stop me except the very few people I value...I have the zeal and zest to achieve what I desire...and no one has the courage to make me feel down....I am proud of what I am today...and yeah, I don't have any regrets in my life and Inshallah I will never have any !

Quote of the Day !

Love doesn't make the world go 'round; it's what makes the ride worthwhile ;)

I Don't Care !

"I don't care"...Is that how I am supposed to respond when someone talks wrong about me ???? I'm not the kind of person who has double faces...I am same from inside as I appear to be from outside...I would never ever bear anything that goes against the values of my life...so yeah I DON'T CARE !

Sunshine :)

From my friend...

I hope you know,
I love you so,
For me all is fine,
Cuz you're my sunshine !

Scared or Excited ?

I'm scared...only three months are left and I'll be back...It's not like I am not happy that I am going back but I am scared to leave everyone here who became so much dear to me during these six months....maybe I would never ever get a chance to meet them again...would life ever give me a second chance to be with my American friends and family again? My life is full of questions now a days but then someone's just few words "like u" makes me feel overjoyed...but I am also scared for leaving some of my other friends from Pakistan even they will be in the same country...I know everyone is going to be busy as soon as they get back to Pakistan...I know about myself too, it would be way hard to talk to them as much as I do now. Life is getting harder for me to survive in. I am really going to miss all the time....but for now I am excited too for the DC....I hope the time in DC would be the bestEST in my whole life...ahh...I can imagine how much it's going to be fun ! My feelings are all messed up or you would rather say mixed up and this mystery type question can never be solved...all in short, I am feeling like I am gonna miss my friends :( !

Again a Great Night Chat :)

I never had such a wonderful chat in my whole life...ahhh...lovin' it ! Last night was one of the most beautiful night ever.....I wish I could have the same chat with you all everyday !!!!!! You really are my FRIENDS for life :) !

Nothing can be more Worthy !

Nothing can give me more pleasure than listening to the little phrases of my friends......"Kutti I love you+Jani...by Aimen"...."Oye meri Soniyae+Emotional Volcanic erruptions...by Arrij"...."Tension na lo+Tum kya cheez ho...by Shariq"...."Mohtarma jee+Chawal...by Shanza"...."Kyun bohat barhi cheez ho+Sab bata dun...by Farhan"...."hmmmm...by Muniba"...."Awwww...by Shaima"...."Yara...by Maham"...."Bus yar+muaaxxx...by Tehniyat"...."Tum lallo ho?...by Aizaz"...."You are impossible...by Asad".......!!!!!! You all are my besties for life !

Relations !

I don't know why but after reading Dure-aziz amna's father's poem about her, I started missing my dad...I was not feeling this before but now I can't stop thinking about you abbu jee....that reminded me of one of my Abbu's saying..."Beta, tu to mera PUTTAR hai na"...and I proved it abbu jee...I have never imagined that I would be able to live this much far from you..The best moment I can ever think of, in my life, is when you said, "Muje meray betay pe fakhar hai"......I love you abbu jee and misses you a lot !

I Still Remember !

I still remember,
The time when you loved to tease me,
Calling my names or pulling my hair,
Listening to me or sitting at the back chair,
And when I ask a question,
You look at me and smile for a while,
And the only thing that made me glad,
"I will love you all my life"
I still remember..!

Imagination ! (just few lines)

I have imagined you with me all the time,
While playing with pillow or writing a poem,
Brushing my hair or running with time....

Never !

Life was not like this before,
I was never meant to be yours...

I can't even understand my own feelings !!!!

I don't know why but today I am loving to write, it feels like I should write everything I am feeling today...I am happy plus my eyes are filled with tears.....I talked to tehniyat and she was upset as well as mad at some people and I understand and favors her completely because I know that she is right....Right now I am waiting for my friend's call....please call soon...I really don't wanna cry....talking to tehniyat made me feel bad for her not only because she is right but also because she is way sweet :)....I am not praisin' anyone..NO butterring....I am writing what I am feeling....I feel like sitting under shower for hours...I need to live peacefully..I hate when I rushed through things....I really don't know what I am trying to say but I JUST KNOW THAT I FEEL LIKE CRYING.....its not usual that I cry...very rarely especially living in US made me able to face the difficulties, ignorance and attitudes !!!!

Mom's Birthday !

Hey wait... don't you think she turned two...actually I don't even remember why did we have candle like that :o !!!!! That was fun...well its always fun to spend time with family.....and yeah, I am waiting for Dad and Angela's Brithday to come.....COMING SOON :) !!!!

Pleasure !

Just checked Dure's blog and saw a song
"Gham-e-Dil ko in aankhun say chalak jana bhi ata hai,
Tarapna bhi humen aata hai tarhpana bhi ata hai"
....there was a time when this song used to give me a really good feeling of peace.......Now I can't stop listening to this...again I am addicted...love it...listen here !

........!!!!!!

I never did these kind of stuff before but I don't know why I started doing this once...I was getting bored in my Algebra 2 class so I started writing whatever was coming in my mind....maybe because a day before a friend asked.."kya tum bhi baqiyun larkiyun ki tarha copies k end pe hearts banati ho?" and my reply was straight "NOOO'"...but the next day, I did it...I don't even know why !!!!!! and the special thing is that I was missing Aimen soooo much :( She used to do this a lot in class....Jani I'll be with you soon...love ya !!!!!

YEAH, IT'S ALL ABOUT MEEEE !!!!!!!

:):):) I just love this notebook.....!!!! because It's all about ME !

CARDS !!!!!

All the cards that I got while I was away from home...oh yeah there is one from Mom and Dad on Eit-ul-Fitr (the top left one), one from Nastya, one from Ghada on Christmas, one from Madiha, one from Rabiya (YES), one from Rabia Api, one from Adeel Bhai and yeah one from ASPECT foundation...LOL ;)

My ROOM wall !!!!!

As I am living with a host family so I have three host sisters....I spent days in decorating my wall (my statement shows many days)...not actually days but couple days (thats better ;P)....so here is it !!!!!

Quote of the Day !!!!

"A man falls in LOVE through his eyes, a woman through her ears.....!!!!!"

I have found You...!!!

In the hours of Sadness,
In the moments of Darkness,
In the fight of World,
In the light of Love,
In the scent of care,
In the depth of dare,
In the glance of pleasure,
In the chance of leisure,
I HAVE FOUND YOU...!!!!

Curiosity...!!!!

My life is becoming a wonder,
I don't want it to become a thunder,
People are getting closer to me,
But the curiosity is still there,
I love to let them know,
How much they mean to me,
And nothing seems worthwhile,
More than a loving chat for a while,
I am loving myself more than before,
Just because I am truly yours,
I can feel the care of the person,
Who meant a lot to me....!!!!

Another great piece of poetry....(writer-anonymous)

Someday, Sometime..
I will touch your heart again..
Someday, Sometime..
Our paths will cross again..
And I will see you..
But won't even know..
This tender little feeling..
That I hold for you..
Shall never cease to exist..
Though you don't know..
Someday, Sometime..
You will entrust..
The meanings of my words..
My feelings, my trust..
Someday, Sometime..
You will look for me afar places..
You won't even know..
At that time..
I was right beside you..
ALL THE TIME...!!!

Poetry...I like a lot !!!

Muhabbat ki tabiyat mein ye kaisa bachpana qudrat ne rakha hai,
K jitni purani jitni bhi mazboot ho jaye,
Isay taeed-e-taaza ki zarurat phir bhi rehti hai,
Yakeen ki aakhri had tak,
Dilun mein leh-lahati ho,
Nighahun say tapakti ho,
Lahu mein jaghmagati ho,
Hazarun tarha k dilkash haseen haalay banati ho,
Isay izhaar k lafzoon ki haajat phir bhi rehti hai,
Muhabbat maangti hai yun gawahi apnay hona ki,
K jaisay tifl-e-saada shaam ko ik beej boye,
Aur shab mein baar-ha uthay,
Zameen ko khod k dekhay,
K poda ab kahan tak hai,
Muhabbat ki tabiyat mein,
Ajab takraar ki khu hai,
K ye iqraar k lafzun ko sunanay say nahi thakti,
Bicharne ki gharhi ho ya koi milnay ki saa't ho,
Isay bus ek hi dhun hai,
Kaho mujse muhabbat hai,
Kaho mujse muhabbat hai,

Tumhen mujse muhabbat hai,
Samandar say kahin gehri,
Sitarun say siwa roshan,
Paharhun ki tarha qayam,
Hawaoon ki tarha dayam,
Zameen say aasmaan tak jis qadar achay manazir hein,
Mohabbat k kinaye hein,
Wafa k ista'aray hein,
Humaray hein,
Humaray waastay ye chaandani raatein sanwarti hein,
Sunehra din nikalta hai,
Muhabbat jis taraf jaye zamana sath chalta hai...

Kuch aesi be-sakooni hai,
Wafa ki sarzameeno mein,
Jo ehl-e-muhabbat ko,
Sada bechain rakhti hai,
K jaisay phool mein khushbu,
K jaisay hath mein paara,
K jaisay shaam ka taara,
Muhabbat krne walun ki sehr raatun mein hoti hai,
Gumaan k shakhchun mein aashiyaan banta hai ulfat ka,
Ye ain-e-wasal mein bhi hijr k khadshoon mein rehti hai,
Muhabbat k musafir zindagi jab kaat chukaty hein,
Thakan ki kerchiyaan chunanay,
Wafa ki ajrakein pehne,
Tou koi doobti saansun ki dori thaam kr,
Dheeray say kehta hai,"YE SACH HAI NA"
Humari zindagi ik dusray k naam likhi thi,
Dhundlaka sa jo aankhun k qareeb hai,
Wo door phaila hai,
Issi ka naam chahat hai,
Tumhen mujse muhabbat thi,
Muje tumse muhabat hai,
Muhabbat ki tabiyat mein ye kaisa bachpana qudrat ne rakha hai !!!!!

No clue...

I have no clue why in the world I am awake this early and writing crazily. I am feeling shooo happy without any reason....:)

My Wierd Thinking....

-I love girls wearing skirts but I hate guys wearing shorts.
-I think guys look handsome in dress shirts...but NOT in the loose kind though ;)
-The most romantic date I could ever think of is Candlelight dinner.
-I could only fall in love with the person I'll marry.
-I hate when guys throw bottles of perfumes to get ready for party.
-I would never ever consider a guy a real man if he wears YELLOW shirt (disgusting) !
-I can never understand how some people don't like Coffee.
-I hate when people forget what they really are.
-I can never respect those who don't respect me.
-I never get to understand that why some people like french accent (yuck).
-I think talking shower at day-time or evening is just the waste of time...why don't you take in the morning !!!!!!
-Will I ever own anything of DARK GREEN color ????
-Life would be heck fun if there won't be any guys (JERK) !!! LOL...JK ;)
I know it's soooo stupid to think these things but still I consider myself wonderful the way I am !!!!

25 Random Facts about ME !!!!

1. I am a pure cancerian and that explains why I cannot hold my emotions in my heart. I want people to know how much I care about them.
2. I am one of those people who express excessively their love, grief and happiness.
3. You can say that I am a pond of clear water, u can easily figure out whats going inside. I just can't hide anything.
4. I claimed to be a mystery but for some of my friends, I am not.
5. I am not the one who requires years to judge...u can decide on the first meeting whether who wanna be friends with me or not and I hope that no one will choose the latter.
6. Caring, loving and a lot of sharing. I love walking alone duirng night (thats the time when I can think of anything beside my daily routine)....I like eating snacks late at night when I am alone in my room...!
7. My dream is my passion.
8. I can socialize easily according to my friends...!
9. I always love to listen advices and love to give them too ;)
10. Really high tempered...(so don't mess with me)....but there is also a good thing that I don't mind saying sorry at anytime even if its not my fault.
11. I can't bear anything wrong about my friends and can always and always stand for them.
12. I respect myself and I could never ever listen anything against me because I know when I am wrong.
13. When it comes to the movies, I like cheesy love stories but actually I enjoy peoples' company more than the movie...!
14. I am worst at lying and decieving....( and i dont like it...kabhi kabhi tou chalna chahiye na)
15. I always need somebody to share my feelings so that shows that I am kind of dependent on some people in my life.
16. I can't compromise...(thats worst in ME)...If i like something, I want that to be mine..COMPLETELY MINE....and some people thinks its just jealousy but believe me its NOT....but there is only ONE person in my life with whom I think I can share each and everything of my life and thats my best friend...Aimen :)....except her I can't think of any !
17. I hate when people tries to make my voice down...If something is wrong according to me, it will always be wrong. I like direct talks...!
18. I am kind of stubborn....sometimes extremely stubborn and that when people think I am annoying but thats just the way I am...
19. I love to be the CENTER of attention...If I care for someone, I expect the same care in return.
20. I love to cook...but I am just okay at it because I never cooked much but I hope that I'll be better ;)
21. My friends loved one thing about me and they call it "EMOTIONAL VOLCANIC ERRUPTIONS"..haha !
22. I just love sleeping...but doesn't sleep much (don't know why ! )
23. I am crazy about some of the things like....ummm....my hair style, kajal, churiyaan...ahhh, greeting CARDS, long long long emails, cellphones, hand bags, ear rings..(this shows how girly I am..lol ) sometimes for anklet too ;)
24. The thing thats noticeable in me is that I love to talk on phone...I can talk whole night with my loved ones....
25. I like taking pictures all the time but I am not photogenic at all....:(

My Little Pleasures....

-Sleeping without dreams
-Talking Limitless
-Eating Careless
-Writing without thinking
-Seeing my dressing table full of make-up, hair gel, straightner, perfumes !
-Receiving handwritten greeting cards with no space left
-Drinking coke after midnight
-Hold my doll close to me while sleeping
-Spending hours in reading through all the cards in store
-Being Shopaholic
-Last but not the least, a hug from someone I care....my AMMI :)

Best Quotes I have ever heard !!!

1) "It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return but what's the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel"
2) "I never knew how to worship until I knew how to love"
3) "Beauty is in the eyes of beholder"

USA...

The hardest part of living in USA is when I am alone in my room, thinking all the time about the life that I had in Pakistan and the life I am having in US.....will I ever miss the life I am having as I'm missing the one I had! I can easily and undoubtly say "I JUST LOVE USA" because my loved ones here made me feel like home...now I just can't imagine the life without my host family.....they are more to me than a host family and all I am feeling this affection is because of my Mom and Dad...I don't know why but I am crying while writing this..I am soooo gonna miss them :(

You were there.....(For my Best Friend)

When I was going through the hardest part of my life,
When I needed my family, my friends to be around,
When no one ever figured out that I cried for hours in my room,
When life had become a pain for me,
When I was in love with the Man of my life,
When my "AMMI's" voice made my tears rolled down my cheeks,
When I remained impatient to listen to the giggles of my sisters,
When no one gave me the same warmth I used to feel in my brothers hugs,
YOU WERE THERE WITH ME,
Thats why I consider you as my BEST FRIEND for Life....Love you a lot !

Special Days of my Life !!!

Things are getting changed....expectations always hurt.....i can't leave the people who mean alot to me....why do I have to?? I had never experienced a night without sleeping....I came to know alot about myself.....just in a night.....laying on bed...starring on the top ceiling...and looking at the texts in my phone...and reading them again and again.....I can't say that night was depressing or I was too much happy...but YEAH that was a special night....!!!! and I will preserve the value of that night BUT can't look back....I would have to keep moving...!