Nothing can be more Worthy !

Nothing can give me more pleasure than listening to the little phrases of my friends......"Kutti I love you+Jani...by Aimen"...."Oye meri Soniyae+Emotional Volcanic erruptions...by Arrij"...."Tension na lo+Tum kya cheez ho...by Shariq"...."Mohtarma jee+Chawal...by Shanza"...."Kyun bohat barhi cheez ho+Sab bata dun...by Farhan"...."hmmmm...by Muniba"...."Awwww...by Shaima"...."Yara...by Maham"...."Bus yar+muaaxxx...by Tehniyat"...."Tum lallo ho?...by Aizaz"...."You are impossible...by Asad".......!!!!!! You all are my besties for life !

Relations !

I don't know why but after reading Dure-aziz amna's father's poem about her, I started missing my dad...I was not feeling this before but now I can't stop thinking about you abbu jee....that reminded me of one of my Abbu's saying..."Beta, tu to mera PUTTAR hai na"...and I proved it abbu jee...I have never imagined that I would be able to live this much far from you..The best moment I can ever think of, in my life, is when you said, "Muje meray betay pe fakhar hai"......I love you abbu jee and misses you a lot !

I Still Remember !

I still remember,
The time when you loved to tease me,
Calling my names or pulling my hair,
Listening to me or sitting at the back chair,
And when I ask a question,
You look at me and smile for a while,
And the only thing that made me glad,
"I will love you all my life"
I still remember..!

Imagination ! (just few lines)

I have imagined you with me all the time,
While playing with pillow or writing a poem,
Brushing my hair or running with time....

Never !

Life was not like this before,
I was never meant to be yours...

I can't even understand my own feelings !!!!

I don't know why but today I am loving to write, it feels like I should write everything I am feeling today...I am happy plus my eyes are filled with tears.....I talked to tehniyat and she was upset as well as mad at some people and I understand and favors her completely because I know that she is right....Right now I am waiting for my friend's call....please call soon...I really don't wanna cry....talking to tehniyat made me feel bad for her not only because she is right but also because she is way sweet :)....I am not praisin' anyone..NO butterring....I am writing what I am feeling....I feel like sitting under shower for hours...I need to live peacefully..I hate when I rushed through things....I really don't know what I am trying to say but I JUST KNOW THAT I FEEL LIKE CRYING.....its not usual that I cry...very rarely especially living in US made me able to face the difficulties, ignorance and attitudes !!!!

Mom's Birthday !

Hey wait... don't you think she turned two...actually I don't even remember why did we have candle like that :o !!!!! That was fun...well its always fun to spend time with family.....and yeah, I am waiting for Dad and Angela's Brithday to come.....COMING SOON :) !!!!

Pleasure !

Just checked Dure's blog and saw a song
"Gham-e-Dil ko in aankhun say chalak jana bhi ata hai,
Tarapna bhi humen aata hai tarhpana bhi ata hai"
....there was a time when this song used to give me a really good feeling of peace.......Now I can't stop listening to this...again I am addicted...love it...listen here !

........!!!!!!

I never did these kind of stuff before but I don't know why I started doing this once...I was getting bored in my Algebra 2 class so I started writing whatever was coming in my mind....maybe because a day before a friend asked.."kya tum bhi baqiyun larkiyun ki tarha copies k end pe hearts banati ho?" and my reply was straight "NOOO'"...but the next day, I did it...I don't even know why !!!!!! and the special thing is that I was missing Aimen soooo much :( She used to do this a lot in class....Jani I'll be with you soon...love ya !!!!!

YEAH, IT'S ALL ABOUT MEEEE !!!!!!!

:):):) I just love this notebook.....!!!! because It's all about ME !

CARDS !!!!!

All the cards that I got while I was away from home...oh yeah there is one from Mom and Dad on Eit-ul-Fitr (the top left one), one from Nastya, one from Ghada on Christmas, one from Madiha, one from Rabiya (YES), one from Rabia Api, one from Adeel Bhai and yeah one from ASPECT foundation...LOL ;)

My ROOM wall !!!!!

As I am living with a host family so I have three host sisters....I spent days in decorating my wall (my statement shows many days)...not actually days but couple days (thats better ;P)....so here is it !!!!!

Quote of the Day !!!!

"A man falls in LOVE through his eyes, a woman through her ears.....!!!!!"

I have found You...!!!

In the hours of Sadness,
In the moments of Darkness,
In the fight of World,
In the light of Love,
In the scent of care,
In the depth of dare,
In the glance of pleasure,
In the chance of leisure,
I HAVE FOUND YOU...!!!!

Curiosity...!!!!

My life is becoming a wonder,
I don't want it to become a thunder,
People are getting closer to me,
But the curiosity is still there,
I love to let them know,
How much they mean to me,
And nothing seems worthwhile,
More than a loving chat for a while,
I am loving myself more than before,
Just because I am truly yours,
I can feel the care of the person,
Who meant a lot to me....!!!!

Another great piece of poetry....(writer-anonymous)

Someday, Sometime..
I will touch your heart again..
Someday, Sometime..
Our paths will cross again..
And I will see you..
But won't even know..
This tender little feeling..
That I hold for you..
Shall never cease to exist..
Though you don't know..
Someday, Sometime..
You will entrust..
The meanings of my words..
My feelings, my trust..
Someday, Sometime..
You will look for me afar places..
You won't even know..
At that time..
I was right beside you..
ALL THE TIME...!!!

Poetry...I like a lot !!!

Muhabbat ki tabiyat mein ye kaisa bachpana qudrat ne rakha hai,
K jitni purani jitni bhi mazboot ho jaye,
Isay taeed-e-taaza ki zarurat phir bhi rehti hai,
Yakeen ki aakhri had tak,
Dilun mein leh-lahati ho,
Nighahun say tapakti ho,
Lahu mein jaghmagati ho,
Hazarun tarha k dilkash haseen haalay banati ho,
Isay izhaar k lafzoon ki haajat phir bhi rehti hai,
Muhabbat maangti hai yun gawahi apnay hona ki,
K jaisay tifl-e-saada shaam ko ik beej boye,
Aur shab mein baar-ha uthay,
Zameen ko khod k dekhay,
K poda ab kahan tak hai,
Muhabbat ki tabiyat mein,
Ajab takraar ki khu hai,
K ye iqraar k lafzun ko sunanay say nahi thakti,
Bicharne ki gharhi ho ya koi milnay ki saa't ho,
Isay bus ek hi dhun hai,
Kaho mujse muhabbat hai,
Kaho mujse muhabbat hai,

Tumhen mujse muhabbat hai,
Samandar say kahin gehri,
Sitarun say siwa roshan,
Paharhun ki tarha qayam,
Hawaoon ki tarha dayam,
Zameen say aasmaan tak jis qadar achay manazir hein,
Mohabbat k kinaye hein,
Wafa k ista'aray hein,
Humaray hein,
Humaray waastay ye chaandani raatein sanwarti hein,
Sunehra din nikalta hai,
Muhabbat jis taraf jaye zamana sath chalta hai...

Kuch aesi be-sakooni hai,
Wafa ki sarzameeno mein,
Jo ehl-e-muhabbat ko,
Sada bechain rakhti hai,
K jaisay phool mein khushbu,
K jaisay hath mein paara,
K jaisay shaam ka taara,
Muhabbat krne walun ki sehr raatun mein hoti hai,
Gumaan k shakhchun mein aashiyaan banta hai ulfat ka,
Ye ain-e-wasal mein bhi hijr k khadshoon mein rehti hai,
Muhabbat k musafir zindagi jab kaat chukaty hein,
Thakan ki kerchiyaan chunanay,
Wafa ki ajrakein pehne,
Tou koi doobti saansun ki dori thaam kr,
Dheeray say kehta hai,"YE SACH HAI NA"
Humari zindagi ik dusray k naam likhi thi,
Dhundlaka sa jo aankhun k qareeb hai,
Wo door phaila hai,
Issi ka naam chahat hai,
Tumhen mujse muhabbat thi,
Muje tumse muhabat hai,
Muhabbat ki tabiyat mein ye kaisa bachpana qudrat ne rakha hai !!!!!

No clue...

I have no clue why in the world I am awake this early and writing crazily. I am feeling shooo happy without any reason....:)

My Wierd Thinking....

-I love girls wearing skirts but I hate guys wearing shorts.
-I think guys look handsome in dress shirts...but NOT in the loose kind though ;)
-The most romantic date I could ever think of is Candlelight dinner.
-I could only fall in love with the person I'll marry.
-I hate when guys throw bottles of perfumes to get ready for party.
-I would never ever consider a guy a real man if he wears YELLOW shirt (disgusting) !
-I can never understand how some people don't like Coffee.
-I hate when people forget what they really are.
-I can never respect those who don't respect me.
-I never get to understand that why some people like french accent (yuck).
-I think talking shower at day-time or evening is just the waste of time...why don't you take in the morning !!!!!!
-Will I ever own anything of DARK GREEN color ????
-Life would be heck fun if there won't be any guys (JERK) !!! LOL...JK ;)
I know it's soooo stupid to think these things but still I consider myself wonderful the way I am !!!!

25 Random Facts about ME !!!!

1. I am a pure cancerian and that explains why I cannot hold my emotions in my heart. I want people to know how much I care about them.
2. I am one of those people who express excessively their love, grief and happiness.
3. You can say that I am a pond of clear water, u can easily figure out whats going inside. I just can't hide anything.
4. I claimed to be a mystery but for some of my friends, I am not.
5. I am not the one who requires years to judge...u can decide on the first meeting whether who wanna be friends with me or not and I hope that no one will choose the latter.
6. Caring, loving and a lot of sharing. I love walking alone duirng night (thats the time when I can think of anything beside my daily routine)....I like eating snacks late at night when I am alone in my room...!
7. My dream is my passion.
8. I can socialize easily according to my friends...!
9. I always love to listen advices and love to give them too ;)
10. Really high tempered...(so don't mess with me)....but there is also a good thing that I don't mind saying sorry at anytime even if its not my fault.
11. I can't bear anything wrong about my friends and can always and always stand for them.
12. I respect myself and I could never ever listen anything against me because I know when I am wrong.
13. When it comes to the movies, I like cheesy love stories but actually I enjoy peoples' company more than the movie...!
14. I am worst at lying and decieving....( and i dont like it...kabhi kabhi tou chalna chahiye na)
15. I always need somebody to share my feelings so that shows that I am kind of dependent on some people in my life.
16. I can't compromise...(thats worst in ME)...If i like something, I want that to be mine..COMPLETELY MINE....and some people thinks its just jealousy but believe me its NOT....but there is only ONE person in my life with whom I think I can share each and everything of my life and thats my best friend...Aimen :)....except her I can't think of any !
17. I hate when people tries to make my voice down...If something is wrong according to me, it will always be wrong. I like direct talks...!
18. I am kind of stubborn....sometimes extremely stubborn and that when people think I am annoying but thats just the way I am...
19. I love to be the CENTER of attention...If I care for someone, I expect the same care in return.
20. I love to cook...but I am just okay at it because I never cooked much but I hope that I'll be better ;)
21. My friends loved one thing about me and they call it "EMOTIONAL VOLCANIC ERRUPTIONS"..haha !
22. I just love sleeping...but doesn't sleep much (don't know why ! )
23. I am crazy about some of the things like....ummm....my hair style, kajal, churiyaan...ahhh, greeting CARDS, long long long emails, cellphones, hand bags, ear rings..(this shows how girly I am..lol ) sometimes for anklet too ;)
24. The thing thats noticeable in me is that I love to talk on phone...I can talk whole night with my loved ones....
25. I like taking pictures all the time but I am not photogenic at all....:(

My Little Pleasures....

-Sleeping without dreams
-Talking Limitless
-Eating Careless
-Writing without thinking
-Seeing my dressing table full of make-up, hair gel, straightner, perfumes !
-Receiving handwritten greeting cards with no space left
-Drinking coke after midnight
-Hold my doll close to me while sleeping
-Spending hours in reading through all the cards in store
-Being Shopaholic
-Last but not the least, a hug from someone I care....my AMMI :)

Best Quotes I have ever heard !!!

1) "It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return but what's the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel"
2) "I never knew how to worship until I knew how to love"
3) "Beauty is in the eyes of beholder"

USA...

The hardest part of living in USA is when I am alone in my room, thinking all the time about the life that I had in Pakistan and the life I am having in US.....will I ever miss the life I am having as I'm missing the one I had! I can easily and undoubtly say "I JUST LOVE USA" because my loved ones here made me feel like home...now I just can't imagine the life without my host family.....they are more to me than a host family and all I am feeling this affection is because of my Mom and Dad...I don't know why but I am crying while writing this..I am soooo gonna miss them :(

You were there.....(For my Best Friend)

When I was going through the hardest part of my life,
When I needed my family, my friends to be around,
When no one ever figured out that I cried for hours in my room,
When life had become a pain for me,
When I was in love with the Man of my life,
When my "AMMI's" voice made my tears rolled down my cheeks,
When I remained impatient to listen to the giggles of my sisters,
When no one gave me the same warmth I used to feel in my brothers hugs,
YOU WERE THERE WITH ME,
Thats why I consider you as my BEST FRIEND for Life....Love you a lot !